Well it's been awhile but Superman is home! I never realized how on the edge the past few months I had been about this. Because now that he is home and I can relax and actually sleep without secretly listening for the phone in the middle of the night is like AHHHH!!! He started his meds this past week and is doing farely well on them. Occasionally nausea will hit him but over all he is improving! Thank you Jesus! I am so glad to have him back home even tho due to us being sicky I have only stopped and visited once! But we are finely getting better so there should be plenty more visits to make.
Mom secretly called me tonight and said that Dad would love to have some of my porkchop casserole. So if that is what Superman wants then that is exactly what he will get PLUS a pan of brownies for being such a trooper! That old man means alot to me and even tho I have a TOUGH time showing it I think he knows it too!! So Friday I am gonna surprise him with his meal and I hope he is able to eat it!
Some more has happen......
CADEN TURNED 5! So this totally makes knots in my stomach and makes tear well in my eyes. I just told a friend maybe 10 minutes ago I don't know what I am going to do when I don't have kids to dote on night and day. They have been my life for so long and my life revolves around them. My anxiety grows when I think about it so I tried to just live for the moment. But yes, my baby turned 5 and in a few more months my lovely first born will turn 8. Hangon a moment................................................................................................I had to run and give them each a hug and kiss! Awe my boys.....I never realized you could love little people so much but I DO!! Sniff Sniff.
Case gave me a big hug the other day and told me "Mom, I will love you forever. You believe me?" My response was "Buddy I will love you forever and ever. I do believe you and will always believe in you!" His big brown eyes melts my heart. And his sweet little voice which will one day turn deep and raspy.
You live your life in such a rush. Rush to start dating. Rush to drive a car. Rush to be 18. Rush to be 21. Rush to get out on your own. Rush to get married. Rush to have babies. Then you have babies and you no longer have to rush because time just seems to fly by and no matter how much you try to slow it down it won't! I would give anything for my boys to stay boys forever.
This wasn't suppose to be such a mushy blog but it came to me last minute. I love my daddy and I love my boys!!
These are the boys that have filled my heart with so much love!!!
