HELLO 2017

Hello 2017!

I'm so happy to see ya! You have been long awaited for. Not sure why but I have been waiting. You see 2016 was too hard on me and I'm hoping that you will be much nicer.

2016 took some things from me. Not material things. Not special people. But a feeling of being needed. A feeling of having a purpose. A feeling of having my place. Case and Caden are no longer leg grabbers. They are no longer chubby faced toddlers. They no longer need me 24/7.
They have grown up. That season of my life have evolved into having an almost teenager and a 9 year old that thinks he's 30. No more morning snuggles while watching Disney and eating cheerios. No more singing "You are my Sunshine". No more carrying them around on my hip while kissing their dirty cheeks.

So this is what 2016 took from me. Well I guess I can't blame it all on 2016 because I guess 2015 took some too but the bulk of it was 2016. So my struggle is where do I belong? What is my purpose? Who do I nurture and care for 24/7?

February 2016 I think Matt saw I needed something. That I needed to be needed. With that he got me a chicken coop and 6 chickens. That 6 chickens grew to 46 chickens. With 3 more coops being built/bought. It got me through the summer and as much as I love my chickens. (And I am seriously that crazy chicken lady) I am still missing something. I am still searching for something.

So 2017 you see I need you to be easy on me. As I gear up for a 12 year old to turn 13. For a 9 year old to turn double digits. For a few more grays to show in my hair and a few more wrinkles to line my faces. I'm not sure if it gets easier or harder or if I will learn to deal or if maybe God will bring something in my life.

For all you mothers that have babies that cry all night. For all you mothers with 2 year old tantrums. Smile and know that its only a season. Its only for a little while. It only last a blink of time. I know its hard for you to see that but I promise you will one day look back and wish to hear that crying baby. To hear the shrills of your toddler. To have a snotty kiss smeared on your face. To have that smell of baby in your lap. You will miss it I promise.

Kiss those babies!!
Camra

Crock-pot chicken tacos

Crock-pot chicken tacos

3 chicken breast (boneless skinless)

1 packet of taco seasoning

Can of black beans drained

Can of corn drained

Rotel

Enough chicken broth to keep the chicken from sticking

Throw it all in the crock pot and put on low. I did mine for about 6 hours. Yummy and fuss free. Enjoy!

Weigh in Wednesday

It's a day late again! One day I will get my stuff together! I have definitely gotten sick easier these past few weeks. I absolutely can't eat breakfast and lunch is a huge battle and then by 3 I am starving and feel like I could eat a whole cow. Most of the time by supper I eat one bite too many and regurgitate it all night. TMI?.. Oh well.....it's the truth. 

Weight in Wednesday

198.0 I can definitely explain why I only lost 1 pound and that is because I made cookies one day. Then made cupcakes and ice cream on Sunday and I have pretty much been doing no exercise at all. I have become addicted to this tv show Breaking Bad and so I have been catching up on all the seasons on Netflix while the boys are at school! So there you have it........

Chili tortilinni

I tried a new Pinterest meal this week. It was super yummy. A change from regular old chili. You make your favorite chili recipe and just add tortilinni in it. Super easy and fast.

Weigh in Wednesday

This is a day late but I do not want to miss anymore of these because I will one day want to look back at my journey. So lets start with "I met my first goal!" Yay! I now am in the 100s. Whoop whoop. 199 to be exact! Haha. Holy moly it took me over a month to get over a plateau and I was starting to get discouraged! But I made it!!!! 

Weigh in Wednesday

Not much has changed. Last week I had a 2 pound gain which is mainly because I ate like a mad woman and missed a fill. But this week I am back on track! I went to the doctor today and got a fill so hopefully that will help. I didn't meet my first goal by school but I hope to meet it by next Wednesday.